Download and read online Never Give in to Fear in PDF and EPUB Never Give in to Fear: Laughing all the way up from Rock Bottom, the enhanced edition of this darkly funny, dramatic memoir, describes an emerging stand-up comic's drug-fueled descent into the underworld, escape from human traffickers, homelessness, and ultimate redemption. With brutal honesty, humor, and clarity, the author vividly describes her experiences as she rides her downward spiral: a near-miss with a notorious serial killer, a series of tragically hilarious misadventures in the California drug world, and a terrifying account of imprisonment at the hands of Japanese organized crime. In an energetic, upbeat, and insightful style, Marti brings to life a host of quirky characters, anti-heroes, and bungling criminals. This revised and re-edited version contains three additional chapters that introduce readers to enthralling adventures, insights into stand-up comedy, resilience and recovery, and elivery an inspiring message about healing, hope, and courage to change -- Publisher's description.
Download and read online Ablutions in PDF and EPUB A nameless barman tends a decaying bar in Hollywood and takes notes for a book about his clientele. Initially, he is morbidly amused by watching the regulars roll in and fall into their nightly oblivion, pitying them and their loneliness. In hopes of uncovering their secrets and motives, he establishes tentative friendships with them. He also knocks back pills indiscriminately and treats himself to gallons of Jameson's. But as his tenure at the bar continues, he begins to lose himself, trapped by addiction and indecision. When his wife leaves him, he embarks on a series of squalidly random sexual encounters and a downward spiral of self-damage and irrational violence. To cleanse himself and save his soul, he attempts to escape ...
Download and read online Memoirs Aren t Fairytales in PDF and EPUB "I could feel my chin falling toward my chest, my back hunching forward. My body was acting on its own, and my mind was empty, like all my memories had been erased. There was scenery behind my lids. Aqua-colored water and powdery sand that extended for miles. I was never going back to coke. I wanted more heroin. And I wanted it now." Leaving behind a nightmarish college experience, Nicole and her friend, Eric, escape their home of Bangor, Maine to start a new life in Boston. Fragile and scared, Nicole desperately seeks a new beginning to help erase her past. But there is something besides freedom waiting for her in the shadows-a drug that will make every day a nightmare. Heroin. With one taste, the love that once flowed through Nicole's veins turns into cravings. Tracks mark the passing of time, and heroin's grip gets tighter. It holds her hand through deaths and prostitution, but her addiction keeps her in the darkness. When her family tries to strike a match to help light her way, Nicole must choose between a life she can hardly remember, or a love for heroin she'll never forget. Reader Caution: A harrowing story of addiction, this novel contains graphic scenes, explicit language, and disturbing situations. Recommend for mature audiences.
Download and read online Clean in PDF and EPUB A group of teens in a Seattle-area rehabilitation center form an unlikely friendship as they begin to focus less on their own problems with drugs and alcohol by reaching out to help a new member, who seems to have even deeper issues to resolve.
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Download and read online Duty and Dishonor in PDF and EPUB Obsessed with the legend of Salt and Pepper--two American G.I.s, one black, one white, who reportedly defected to Russia--Staff Seargeant Wilhelm Pudarski goes against his superiors on a mission to find them. Original.
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